Thursday, Sept. 10, 2009 - 22:45

Feeling a little under the weather today - work held multiple frustrations with the computers, annoyance at other people's fuckwittedness and laziness, disappointment with myself at not getting X and Y done, and serious worry having had my medical and had coughing ruin my lung test to the extent that I'll have to repeat it next week.

I have let a lot of things slide, as is the usual way things go with me when I've been in a job, a place, a relationship etc. for more than a year. A combination of lack of self confidence and a lack of self discipline (because after all, surrounded by the people I am, what the fuck difference could I make, even if I tried my hardest and worked my arse off?) has put me in the slough of despond. Motivationless ennui.

Dennis McFadden and collaborators have demonstrated sexual dimorphism in hind limb digit ratio in a number of great apes, including gorillas and chimpanzees. Nancy Burley's research group has demonstrated sexual dimorphism in zebra finches, and found a correlation between digit ratio in females and the strength of their preference for sexually selected traits in males.

Watched series 1 episode 2 of 'Teachers' earlier. It was quite funny, but I do get the feeling that the actors and writers are still honing their art. The characters are not yet fully formed, and hence the amusement level is lower than it is later.

The Bideford witch trial resulted in the last ever hangings for witchcraft in England. Temperance Lloyd, Mary Trembles and Susannah Edwards were tried in 1682 in the town of Bideford, England. Much of the evidence against them was hearsay, although there was a confession by Lloyd, which she did not fully recant even with her execution imminent.

I remember going to Edinburh waxworks when I was a child. The Chamber of Horrors was full of famous Scottish murderers (Burke & Hare, Sawney Bean, Lord Darnley, plus many more) and it scared the fuck out of me.

LISTENING TO:- I popped on a few tunes earlier. Recallable were Laura Branagan 'Gloria' and 'Lose Control'.

I am naked at the moment, and I am wondering what it would feel like to have my ankles tied together with thick cord - for instance my dressing gown cord - and to be hung upside-down from a hook by this binding. How long would I last before passing out?